Its the last night before I go to school.
Traditionally, for one reason or another, I end up staying up all night before I leave to go to Spokane or come back to Fresno.
Tonight I am exhausted, but I feel that I have so much still to say and process.
I spent this summer:

1. working at FIRM!
2. feeling the experience of being exactly where God wants me (finally again)
3. getting more action than Logan (lol)
4. feeling lost and confused (again)
5. hanging out with GAYG girls (LOVE)
   
6. not dealing with Whitworth issues

since I haven't been dealing, I've become bitter, about just about EVERYTHING that has anything to do with Whitworth. Is this healthy? no. Do I enjoy my bitterness? generally yes. Are there really good things about Whitworth that I've been conveniently forgetting? I really hope so.
And that is so sad.
Thats a sad picture of my heart. and thats a sad picture of the place that has been my home most of the past two years.
And I'm more or less dreading getting on that plane, and leaving Fresno behind.
I need to though.
I spend way too much time when I'm here thinking about the same thing over and over again. When I'm working, or hanging out with girls from camp, not so much; however, the past two weeks while i've been sitting at home, sort of working on things, thats when i do the most detrimental thinking.

Let go already girl. There's so much more AHEAD of you than what you leave behind.