And suddenly, I am back in Toronto.

At first overjoyed, I spent a long time rearranging my room, hoping it would feel again like home. Like the next episode of my big adult adventure of: Living Life Anywhere I Want. Neeny Do It Self.

And I am remembering the not so exciting things. The people that annoy me. The ungracious parts of my personality. (we can only learn love through community, especially from the parts where we fail at love)

I am in love with some ideal of Fresno, and now I am here. I am good at my job here. People like me here. I have some incredible friendships here.